Chapt 4 "I can't feel shit!"

"London, London", a young woman sobbed as she gently pull her hair away from her face. "Girl you got us all out here scared to death, girl please wake up", the young woman whispered with a face full of tears. No matter how hard I tried I just couldn't move.It actually felt like I was floating over my body. I could see people in my room standing near my bed, but I could not see their faces. All I could hear were voices. Damn! Why everybody looking so sad?, I thought. I'm gonna make it through this bullshit, I been through too much in my life, to let something like this take me out. "Where the fuck is she, is this her room!!?" a man yelled as he violently burst through the door to my room. "Get the fuck off me bruh.....Take ya fuckin hands off me dawg!!", the man demanded. "Sir, you need to lower your voice and calm down!", the security guard advised. "Fuck you fake ass cop!", the man yelled jerkin his arm away from the security guard's firm hold. "That's my heart over there laid up in that bed fighting for her life, and you tryna stop me from seeing her!", he snapped. "Look man I'm just doing my job, but I don't want any trouble, I got problems of my own, handle ya business", the guard said as he proceeded to walk out the room.

The man now focused his attention on the crowd gathered behind him. "Where the fuck was yall at!", the man yelled as he inched closer towards my bed. "How the fuck she get shot and all yall supposed to be together!" "Ain't yall supposed to have her back?", he screamed. "Vanessa, you the loudest one in the bunch, Why the fuck you all quiet now?", he asked. "Look Rock, London was not with us, So you need to get ya facts straight before you go running off at the mouth!", she snapped back. "I was out with momma buying food for the house", she continued "London told me she was at the mall with Regina" Rock interrupted "Regina what the fuck happen!", Rock asked. Regina was never the one to hold her composure together when put on the spot. "London told me to take her card and go into Neimann Marcus and pick up the outfit she ordered online", Regina cried. "She said she wasn't feeling too good, and she was going over to the Food Court to get a Ginger Ale", she continued. "So I went", Regina said reluctantly. "When I got to the Customer Service Desk, I gave the lady London's name and handed her the card", she continued. "That's when I heard-. At that moment, a man in a Bright White long coat walked into the room. I couldn't hear what he was saying, but everyone began to cry. Damn it!!! I wish I could just get up out this bed and tell them I'm fine. "I can't believe this shit, I just can't believe it", Rock cried. "Has anybody talked to King, that dude is going to fuckin lose it, yall know London like his flesh and blood", Rock said as he began to wipe the tears from his eyes. "Please don't get him involved, he is in enough trouble as it is", Vanessa replied. "Ms. Millie have you talked to King today?", Rock asked. "No baby I haven't talked to him in 2 weeks.", Mrs. Millie replied. "We need to pray and ask the Lord to heal this situation, God knows best", Mrs Millie sobbed. "We need to leave it in his hands.", she said as she began to pray to herself. "Why ain't she answering her phone?", Regina said. You have reached the phone of "LaDonna Simpson", please leave your name, number, and brief message, and I might call you back, if I feel like it, bye.

Regina closed up her phone, walk over to my lifeless body, gave me a kiss on the cheek and walked out the room. "I'm going to get something to eat, I'll be back", she said. Why in the hell was she calling Donna!, don't they know that trick shot me?? "Ever since LaDonna hooked up with Courtney, she been real messy, ain't no telling where she is and what she doing", Vanessa snapped. "I can't stand her funny acting ass", she shouted. "Hush up child", Mrs. Millie said. "We don't need no more negativity today, let her be.", Mrs Millie said in a somber voice. "Excuse me, I need to change Ms. Grier's bandages, I'm gonna have to ask you all to step outside please.", A nurse instructed as she was standing in the doorway. Everyone in the room began to leave. "As soon as I'm done, I'll be sure to let you all know", the nurse advised. The nurse began to clean my wounds and mess around with the machines that where keeping a sista alive. "Oh Mercy your IV drip is low...I'll fix that for you right now", she said in the sweetest voice. OMG!!! I don't know what was in that stuff she gave me, but I'm pass cloud nine right now. I can't feel shit! It feels like I'm having the craziest dream right now. but I'm so ready to wake up though!! "Ms. Grier you are very lucky to have such a loving family, they were about to kick everybody's butt to get up here to see you, even though its way past visiting hours", she laughed. "Your mother prayed over my hands, and ask the Lord to bless me with the gift of healing", she said. "I hope he heard her, cause it would be a shame to lose someone with so much to live for.", she whispered in my ear. "Fight baby Fight as hard as you can.", she said. "You get sum rest now Ms. Grier, I'll be back to see u later.", she said as she grabbed her clipboard and walked out the room.

That was just like Mrs. Millie to do something like that...If anybody was gonna fix it, it was gonna be the Lord. She always said that during many of her lectures on having faith in him. I love her so much, I thought as a warm feeling came over me. Just then my room door slowly opened up. A large figure began walking towards my bed. I couldn't see who it was, but I could tell he had on a hat. The man placed his hat on a table that was near my feet, and sat down in the chair beside me and began to cry. He didn't say a word, he just cried. A bright light sweep across my eyes and before I knew it I was standing behind him. I reached out and touch his shoulder. He quickly snapped his head around. What the....Felt like somebody touched me, he thought to himself. "London baby its me..It's King". he cried. "Why you doing this to me. you know I can't lose you right now. I'm supposed to be laid up in her, not you.", he sobbed. "Open ya eyes babygirl, do it for me, please" he cried. No matter how much I tried I just couldn't open my eyes. I was frozen solid, all I could do was think and my mind was racing non stop. Why did this happen to me? I know I've done some things in my past that were wrong but did I deserve to go out like this? Why now? I changed my ways? I became angrier and angrier with every passing thought. "Fight girl! Fight! Fight! Fight!", I screamed in silence. "Wake the fuck up, London Grier!", I screamed in rage. At that moment with every ounce of might I had left in my body I squeezed King's hand. "London?", he said in amazement. "babygirl can u hear me?", he cried out. "Open ya eyes, Let me see them pretty browns". I just squeezed harder every time I heard his voice. King pressed the button that was near my bedside and called the nurse on duty. "Nurse!" "She's moving", he screamed. "I think she's waking up". "Hello!?", he said.

Just as he turn his attention back to me, the nurse came running through the door. "Did you say she was moving", the nurse asked. "Yea look she won't let go of my hand", King said in excitement. The nurse got on the intercom near the wall and called for the on call doctor to come to the room. I guess with all the commotion going on my family must've seen it, and before you knew it, they were right there in the room. "King!, we been looking for you man", Rock said. "I went to handle some business and LaDonna called me talking about she was looking for London and not in a good way.", he answered. Just then the doctor came into the room. "Whats the problem nurse", he asked. Look at her hand Doctor Rubinstein", she said as she pointed at my grip of death on King's hand. "What's the problem, isn't this good news", King asked. "King, come on outside so we can talk baby", Mrs Millie interrupted. "Naw, I'm not leaving her side, plus she got my hand, she don't want me to leave.", he replied with tears forming up again in his eyes. "King, I said come on boy, Don't make me tell you again, Mrs Millie demanded. "What is it, just tell me.", he screamed. "Sir", the doctor said as he placed his hand on King's shoulder. "Ms Grier suffered massive blood lost, she wasn't receiving enough oxygen to her brain...So technically It's great that she is squeezing your hand", he continued. "That's shows signs of life, but she's not supposed to be moving at all...she's brain dead....